Medication without emotional numbness

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Hi!
I’ve been struggling with anxiety and dissociation since my dad died 3.5 years ago which has thrown up some family complications
I wonder if I have adhd and am waiting for an assessment
my mind is NEVER off
ive done lots of talking therapy which has helped, I don’t feel depressed
I am pretty much always not present and I think this is due to my mind whirring away all the time, it really upsets me as I’m a mum and adore my children and feel like I’m missing out and won’t remember a lot of this time. I connect with them and we are close but it’s like I’m watching myself do it if that makes sense

my question is has anyone had similar experience and found a successful meditation?
ive been on sertaline before which has helped my mood before but this has been when I’ve been depressed and I don’t feel hopeless or down now really
my reluctance to go back on sertraline is that I ended up coming off it a few times as I didn’t like the numbness it gave me so I certainly don’t want it to exasperate that

Mirtazipine is good for anxiety - it really helps with sleep to. I haven’t felt numbed by it but it does give increased appetite which a lot of people do not like. It’s not a given tho, some don’t get that side effect. I’ve been on quite a few meds over the years and that’s the one that I think would possibly be best appropriate (obv I’m not a doctor tho lol)

Thanks so much for replying. I’ll speak to my doctor about that x

Propranolol is good for anxiety.

I find mirtazapine numbing. I find it very helpful for sleep. The bad thing is that I would sleep most of the day too if I could. I had the same thing where my brain just wouldn’t stop and it has slowed that right down but now I have terrible brain fog.
I wouldn’t ask for specific medications, just go to the doctor and explain the problem.