when will i feel normal again?

[Titania]

I keep waking up between 2 and 3am every morning and can't get back to sleep. I am totally drained. I feel sick and heady all the time. I try to stick to my strict housework regime as I feel better once its all done. I can't rest til it is. I have to do set things everyday. I am on 20mg cipralex and 2mg diazepam. The diazepam doesn't make me feel any different. I still get panic attacks. I just want to feel normal again

Titania, I think vict17 is very brave to make that suggestion. TBH, that was the first thing that went through my mind, but I know how much Molly means to you and didn't want to upset you/give you another problem to think about. Did you get my email? Sorry, had to go to Portsmouth yesterday and we didn't get back until really late. Check out your email and maybe you can help me work out this bl**dy MSN thing!

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i dont want to get rid of her.

yes carla i did get your email. replied to it earlier

Feeling totally rotten. Got a hell of a sore throat and bad head. I'm so run down. I just want a night when I can sleep through and a day when I don't have to run around like a mad thing all bloody day. I'm mentally and physically drained and feel as though I am perching right on the edge....

I can't phsically do anymore....I feel burnt out. I have been in tears most of the day. Everythings gone wrong.

Dear Titania, I'm so very sorry to read your posts-no practical help I'm afraid-just wanted you to know someone's here and you're not aloneand a hug from me to you

Titania. Wish I could offer some advice.

thanks. just going to go curl up on the sofa i think. I'm feeling pretty rotten with this cold and throat x

sob i cant now........the dogs pooed everywhere again and the rabbits kicked sawdust everywhere......i only cleaned it out this morning........

totally full of a cold and feeling rotten. typical being on ads means you are limited to what you can take though

havent slept a wink all night. feel totally drained. feel all panicky this morning. The diazepam doesn't seem to help though.

oh i need sleep.....ds2 has been impossible all night. He has finally stopped crying but is clung to me like one of those little monkeys!! I was debating going out....I really have to go to the bank and put DHs wages in. But I can barely even walk in a straight line let alone get out the house. Not sure how I am going to get ds1 from school yet. SIL took him this morning for me but is at work now. I have only been taking ibuprophen but I'm feeling worse than I did yesterday.

just had another HUGE row with DH...... SOB i just want to be normal......

am going to bed before i say or do something i might regret........

Titania, I've just yahood you.