Please help

[Claire387dhheeh]

please help me am sitting here tonight in tears. Scared. In fact terrified about the fact I’m even thinking of taking my life when I have a beautiful 11yr old , whom has no contact with dad and suffered so much loss in her life. Her dad. Her grandad. Her great Nan. Her friend. And my mum loosing her husband and only having me for support. that’s this can still cross my mind. I am in tears and have been for hours begging my dead dad to help me: I’m terrified of how I feel. I wooild never ever leave them and cause them any more pain then theve already endured but I’m terrified the thoughts are even in my head. If they were not here and so dependent on me I would tho . There saving me and they don’t even no it

Hi :) firstly, keep breathing steadily. (Perhaps try breathing in for 4, hold for 7, out for 8 for a minute - it really helps slow a racing heart and calms anxiety)

Secondly, I’m so sorry you’re feeling upset and worried. You’ve been through so much, your daughter too. You sound like an amazing parent to be able to put yourself in her shoes like this.

Thirdly, thoughts are just thoughts. They’re important but we don’t need to act on them. It’s okay to think and feel whatever you’re thinking and feeling. These things don’t define us, and you’re not a bad person for thinking and feeling anything.

You don’t want to die. You just want this pain to stop and that’s completely understandable.
Just keep going, one breath after the other. Do you feel you could call somebody like the Samaritans ?

I have been feeling exactly like you! guess what!??! because of my DC, I CANNOT end it and leave them behind, and my parents and my. siblings suffering! So, we can’t do it!!! but what we can do is seek help via our GP. Booked today to see my GP to put me on antidepressants as they do help!
We have to soldier on, we have no choice!
I have also being crying today, yesterday.. but I then get up, wipe my tears and go get my DCs from school, wash their clothes and cook them dinner. You got this! Book an appointment with your GP today!

please just take a breath and find some one to ask for help.. make the call… they will help. A friend, Samaritans, 999, whoever it is. I feel for you, the way to stop this is asking for help

Aw sausage I hear you, we hear you, you're not alone - take it one minute at a time. Breathe in for four counts, then out for six. It will help calm your system. You can do this - feelings aren't facts and they can change x

Thank you. I have calmed a bit now. Have been up to sit on my daughters bed to remind myself how lucky I am but I have flushed all my medication down the toilet also.
think a go appointment will be a good Idea. It had hit me like a train out of nowhere this eve and it’s reali scared me

Call 111 and pick option 2 there are people to help keep you safe.