I love my kids, they are everything, and I’m very happy with DH, but life just feels sooooo mundane right now.
We are a bit hard up for money as well so just resenting paying hundreds on childcare whilst also trying to hold down a not massively well paid job.
I already take ADs, have suffered with depression since being a teen, but what I’m feeling at the moment isn’t my usual depression, it’s just the strain of feeling so totally restricted by it all and how our free time is dictated by 2 kids who are in very different stages of life.
I can’t help feeling jealous of SIL who’s kids are a bit older, and she just seems to have a better time of it. I hate to wish away their younger years but honestly the mess, the tantrums (from the 2 year old), the back chat from the 5 year old, the non stop getting up to tidy something up, the daily bath and bedtime routine, the early wake ups, the snotty noses and messy hands, being unable to speak to DH and just flaking out in the evening, the looking forward to the weekend when at work, but then looking forward to Monday again come Sunday..I hate to sound negative but I’m so bored of this!
Anyone have any advice or solidarity to lend?