I think the main thing for me is feeling unappreciated. It just wears me down and make me feel really sad.
I've been starting to think about ways that I can appreciate myself but it's a work in progress!
I also didn't sleep very well this weekend.
I also feel just out of sorts - like I'm living a life that I don't know how I got here. I think this is depression?
I was very low for large parts of last year due to work related stress. This has gotten better this year with a different job but I wonder if I'm just used to being stressed all the time.
For what feels like a long time I've been wondering what next in life, probably for about a decade to be honest, but I put it aside to focus on financial security with what seemed like the best path at the time. I don't know how I can be 45 and feel like I still don't know what I'm meant to be doing or where I'm meant to be heading. But I also feel optimistic that there could be an exciting chapter in front of me - I just don't know in what direction or what I want to do and don't have financial means to take sudden leaps.