I keep crying and feeling down

[Mrspeacee]

I’ve got to the point that I have this constant level of just feeling down. It lingers there on good, bad, in between days. I feel really rubbish I’m 25 yrs and I can’t tell anymore if this is just life or if what I’m feeling is unusual.

I try to spend time with friends but they are all busy with children also and don’t leave their house. I’ve identified that this is one reason why I feel low. I feel like life has changed so much that I don’t have friends anymore to be around even with the kids there. I also try not to burden them too much with my problems as usually I’m the person everyone comes to with their issues. I also find when I do no one is really there for me or has the time to give support like I would for them.

family I’ve tried to bring it up but I get shut down. It’s your a mother and you just got to carry on, it’s just life. Plus I guess I’m usually the get through life person so no one takes me saying I feel down serious.

other than that I work 40hrs, I do nursery trips, have hardly any sleep and do it all over again.

im not writing this to be ungrateful as im grateful for all the lovely things I have in life. I just feel stuck and feel like completely shutting everything out. I don’t know what or why I’m feeling like this but it’s really weighing me down.

Does anyone else go through this ?

Mostly, you sound exhausted. You're working full time, have at least one pre school child, and are putting pressure on yourself to look after everyone else and organise stuff. It's not usual to feel that low, but given what you've got going on I don't think it's unreasonable. Do you have a partner? Do early nights or family trips at the weekend help?

Me and my child’s father are not together. He doesn’t have appropriate set up for LO to stay over. I tried to go to bed early but my daughter loves to wake up in the night.

on the weekend I’ve been trying to do things like park ect but I find after the long week I usually crash on the weekend. I find it so hard to get motivation and find the energy to do something big. Other then to do the shopping and cleaning to prepare for Monday and the week ahead

Exhausted definitely

but may be worth seeing a doctor - you may need a short break now to prevent a future breakdown

I sometimes have like few hrs while my daughter sees her dad but it’s rarely enough. Anything over night rarely happens as I use my parents one day a week to watch my LO while I’m at work so they are not willing to do any more childcare.

I feel like a bit of failure that I’m struggling like this and stuck. At the moment all I can think to do is wait on the waiting list for counselling. But at the moment I just feel so heavy and sensitive to get through it

Honestly I think the doctors would be more use than counselling - you can’t see the wood for the trees at the moment and humans have limits and needs - even mothers