Crisis team are visiting me. What to expect

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So I was a bit too honest with my psychiatrist today and he contacted crisis team. They're coming out at some point over the nightshift. I'm worried they're going to take me away.

He says it's just till my higher dose of meds starts to work. But I'm scared. Last time I saw them I was suffering with psychosis and they told me I was just tired and to go to bed. I'm scared they'll belittle everything again. I want them to hear me. But I've had so many appointments and meetings and phonecalls in the last few days and no ones listening to me. Has anyone dealt woth a crisis team before and can you tell me how it goes?

my son was under the care of our local crisis team, although it was often different people they were all very caring, came every day at a set time for about 3 weeks, listened to him, not that he had a lot to say, didn't judge, checked he was taking his medication and asked about his symptoms, he was hearing voices. They also asked his permission to speak to us, his mum & dad. At no time time did they suggest he be taken into a secure unit, although that was a possibility I guess.
I hope your local authority crisis team are the same and give you any help you need, best wishes to you

I hope very much that you get the help you need and that the team listen and are sympathetic.

As previous poster said, the crisis team are there to help you. They listen, you get a chance to off load what’s on your mind and they may make a few useful suggestions. They may make an appointment to come again. Obviously if there’s a real risk to your safety they may need to discuss options with you or a close family member, but without knowing what you’ve shared it’s hard to say.
Please don’t think anything bad will happen. I suffered a psychosis 9 years ago and they were fantastic. The NHS is so over stretched it’s extremely hard to get help, they go to huge lengths to keep you at home.

Thank you everyone. They're coming at half ten. So I won't have to stay up late and the kids will be in bed. Just a shame dh will be awake and I don't want him there. I can pretend to be almost OK woth him right now. If he knows how bad i am he'll see me differently.

I hope that the visit from the team went well.
In order to get the best out of the services they do need to know everything - and your OH can only offer proper support if he knows how bad things are at the moment. Pretending will not help. Everyone needs to be pulling in the same direction.

I hope that you will be feeling better soon.

Hopefully it went well, crisis teams are designed to support people at home in a crisis situation with intensive support, their primary focus should not be on putting you in hospital, unless that is absolutely necessary for your safety and they absolutely should listen to you

It went OK. They told me I'm not busy enough and that's why I'm getting suicidal thoughts. But I'm not safe to go out on my own at the minute. My CPN wasn't happy when I told her. They just kept repeating that I need a peer support worker to take me out for coffee. As if having coffee with a stranger will stop the fact I need to kill myself to keep my loved ones safe.

Hope you’re doing ok OP, you’ve been in my thoughts today. Keep talking to the crisis team they’re there to help you ❤️ take one day at a time and take care of yourself xx

Why do you “need to kill myself to keep my loved ones safe”.

@TalulahJP it's complicated but I'm.being punished for having done it yet. Things will get worse and worse until I do it.

Crisis team signed me off. But the EIP are talking to me everyday. I'm on diazepam every day too who h is helping slow my brain down.

Have you talked to anyone about that? It would be good if you could do that. A worry shared and all that.

It maybe feels like youre being punished but sometimes bad things happen. It’s just life. When lots of bad things happen the same week it feels overwhelming. That’s when it’s good to talk. Get it off your chest. Do you have a CPN or anyone you could have a chat with?

Sorry I don’t know who EIP are. Maybe they can help.

EIP is early intervention in Psychosis. I have a CPN she's off today but my old PCN is calling me today. I've been super open woth everyone. But when I'm honest everyone just gets weird. I'm so fed up of meetings and phone calls and assessments.

That’s great your old one can give you a call. It does get kind of same-old same-old when you need a bit of medical care. Repeating the same stuff to different people.

But it does help to share your worries. Tell them what you need and what you’re thinking about and see if you can help them to understand your rationale and maybe they could have a new perspective on things. I do that Im counselling. They give me food for thought. I can go I’m convinced that someone’s done me wrong or whatever and they may come up with a different view that makes me relieved i was just down a rabbit hole getting myself upset for nothing.

I hope your meds kick in soon. It sucks having to wait when you just want fixed now. I don’t have much patience!

Psychosis, especially where command hallucinations are involved, is difficult to understand for many, the idea that an intrusive thought can be so strong and the consequences of ignoring it so severe that you have to act on it. Hopefully your medication kicks in quickly, you can only be as open as you are and have to hav3 some trust in the professionals caring for you. EIP are certainly the more expert in this field but , unless things have dramatically changed, don’t offer the 24 hour support a crisis team can. Good luck

Thanks again. I called crisis team again today and the lady actually listened and tried to help. She didn't tell me how I feel or what I need. She talked everything through with me. She's trying to sort some therapy out with my cpn.

I found a box of pills today hence the call to crisis team. Luckily dh found me coveting them before I took then. The new aripiprazole dose is helping, things that were as clear as day now feel like dreams. I still feel like people are out to get me though snd they said that would go away. The cosmic energy controlling everything feels dreamlike now.

I wish the urges to kill myself would guck off. I'm fed up of not being allowed out by myself and not being allowed access to my meds. Being given them by dh as I need them makes me feel like a baby.

Well I got my period today and a weight has been lifted. The pre menstrual period has always been a trigger. For the first time in over a week I have no urge to eat tablets or chug cleaning products. Still not feeling great but huge relief to not be consumed with thoughts of my demise.

Maybe you need something to balance your hormones throughout the month if it’s a hormonal issue. Have you tried the pill or mini (progesterone only) pill or anything shes hormonal? Might be with investigating?

@TalulahJP My dh agrees with you on that. I'm not sure because it usually isn't anywhere near this bad and messing with my hormones scares me incase it triggers anything.

My new medication doses have kicked in and I no longer feel suicidal. I've taken myself to the charity shops for a treat as I love browsing them. Thank you everyone for the support. It helped chip away at the way I felt. But nothing beats antipsychotics and antidepressants for a cure.

I had involvement with crisis team after the birth of both my kids. To put in bluntly, as I didn't have the noose around my neck they said it would be best if I could get private therapy as I'd be waiting forever for nhs input. Although sadly likely true, it was a shock at the fact they provided nothing.