Very low and can’t think clearly

[sunnyday2025]

Have also posted recently under work but realise my issues are wider.

I got divorced last year after 30 years after a horrendous few years with other horrible life events. At the same time I also returned to work full time after being a SAHM for 10 years.
Sold the family home and just bought my own place.

I should finally be picking myself up and looking forward to a new future but I am a total mess and feel broken.

My mood sweves between panic and depression. I feel totally overwhelmed and the slightest thing starts me crying. Im not sleeping or eating properly.
I am in a job I absolutely hate which makes my anxiety worse but I’m trapped for the foreseeable.

Im on ADs and have started counselling but feel a total mess. I am several years post menopause. Just want to disappear.

Lovie, you got out of a marriage – you can get out of a job.

Youve used all your reserves up getting to this point. You need to go small, put no expectations on yourself, take each day in small chunks.

Youve gone through so much. No wonder youre all over the place.

How long have you been on the antiD’s for? They take about 3 or4 weeks to kick in.

Start looking for a new job. Youll get there you really will.

If you have any spare cash acupuncture is really good for immediately making you feel calmer and more Im control of your emotions but it’s about £50 upwards so perhaps not affordable just now.

I’ve been on ADs for years - Mirtazapine plus Propranolol for anxiety.
i feel awful though

Sorry to read you're struggling op but it's no wonder. Be kind to yourself and give yourself a break. One step at a time. 30 years of marriage is a lot and a huge change

I can’t stop crying I don’t want to be here

I’m so sorry that today is so bad. You have been through so much trauma and havent had a chance to catch your breath and I do think there’s something about being in your 50s when life is unsettled and not how you thought it would be, that makes us feel extra vulnerable.

It sounds like you need an appointment asap with the GP to discuss how much worse you’re feeling and maybe look at your medication to get you through this difficult period, but for today can you just keep talking on here and is there anyone near that you can confide in?

Don't forget, you can call the Samaritans anytime on 116 123.

Awwww, thinking of you xx