Please help me ride this wave

[iloveyoubutilovememore]

For the last couple of weeks my mental health has been slipping. I don’t know if it’s because I was trying to very slowly taper off my sertraline and went down to 25, or because of change which I often seem to struggle with. When I say change I mean my youngest started school last week & it’s the end of an era. We were questioning whether to have a third and it was causing me so much anxiety.

Currently my mind seems to flip between either extreme panic and dread, something awful is going to happen or I’m not going to pull through this time. To feeling utterly depressed and questioning whether I even like my life? It’s as if it’s tricking me into believing I have been feeling this way for a very long time.

I know what to do to help myself, I work in perinatal mental health and have learnt so much along the way. But it’s still such a horrible battle and I can’t believe I’m back here again. I just want it to pass soon :(

Sorry you’re going through this. Anxiety is horrible.

it sounds as though you’re maybe not ready to wean down yet and need to stay at the higher rate for now?

Just wanted to say, you’re not alone. I’ve started tapering too. 100mg to 75mg was fine. 75mg to 50mg not so good. On and off anxiety, lethargy etc. I’m sticking with it for now but I’m fed up and really don’t want increase my dose again. Hope things get better soon - for both of us.x

I’d suggest you up your meds again and stabilise before thinking about what to do next. One thing at a time. Thinking about family dealing with a new school and tapering meds at once is too much. Nobody would feel healthy with all that going on.

People always feel broody when the youngest goes to school. It could just he that (or your hormones depending on your age). Put a pin in those thoughts for say six weeks and then decide about your family and then taper down once the decisions made.