Terrified for trial

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Long story but 3 years after reporting my ex for controlling and coercive behaviour and 🍇 the trial is finally about to happen soon. I was with him for 10 years and left with my kids 3 years ago, reported him to the police and went into emergency accommodation. It’s been such a hard 3 years. My mh- something I’ve never had to deal with has been horrific. Currently seeing a psychologist and a psychiatrist cos I just want to feel normal again. The trial is soon and I feel all sort of fear, panic and anxiety around it. Terrified for the outcome and him not being held accountable. Not really sure what I’m asking here but maybe just some advice or people’s experiences to put my mind at ease, TIA

I hear you. I am also 3yrs post separation and sounds like we have been through a similar horrific time. Do you have a non-molestation order? Is your hearing at crown or magistrates court? Have you spoken to the NCDV? I found their advice very helpful.
Are you getting any help from anyone? The Police were great and put me on different programmes they run for victims of domestic abuse. I don’t think I’ll ever feel ‘normal’ again and I still wake each morning with awful flashbacks.
Regarding court. You don’t have to be in the same room with your ex. I refused as I couldn’t bear to hear his voice ever again. A screen separating us was not enough for me. So they let me go in and then I left and he went in.

Aw I’m sorry to hear you have had a rough time too. I’m the same with flashbacks, panic attacks, nightmares etc just feels like it’s taken over my whole life. I’m in Scotland so my trial is through the high court, I was put in touch with Womans aid and have a domestic abuse support worker so am definitely getting the support but just really struggling with the anxiety of the trial. I’ve already gave my evidence. I got to do it by commission- which just means I appeared prior to the trial and was questioned by the PF and his defence in front of the judge and it was all pre recorded which means I don’t have to go to court to give evidence during the trial and I didn’t have to see him. What was the outcome of your case if u don’t mind me asking? Terrifying me that there’s a chance he could walk away from this depending on the jury’s decision obviously. There is a lot of evidence so I’m very hopeful this won’t be the case