I will tell someone in real life tomorrow

[maybejustonemorebiscuit]

Things have all come to a head following the death of my friend. I have conflicting views in my head. Life is short and precious. I need to make sure I look after myself to be here for my kids...
and I'm useless, worthless and they really would be better off without me. I know really they need and it would destroy them if something happened to me. I will always try to put their needs first but I just can't shake that inner voice and feeling that I am a fat pathetic useless idiot. I know it is because of my dad saying these things to me as a teenager. As my daughter is now at the age where I started getting the blame for many things - I realise it actually want my fault and I'm not the evil selfish bitch I thought I maybe was deep down.

so tomorrow, or since it is 2am, today I will tell the gp and start to try and sort myself out.

Good for you 🤗 Come back and say how you felt after telling them, if you want to.

good plan, try to sleep now- don’t let the bad thoughts race around your head. I always tell myself a story in my head to send myself off to sleep, something nice and soothing. Sleep well, tomorrow is a new day - make your first action of the day to hug your beautiful children ( or message them if they are adults!) as there’s nothing like the love of your kids to give you a lift when you need it. Good luck

@maybejustonemorebiscuit did you do it OP?