Losing my temper

[Alwayslearning25]

In the last two weeks I've shouted at my children and my DH a couple of times. Today I properly lost my temper screemed at my 2 year old. There was build up, of him being difficult, then my DH took longer than normal on the dog walk, because he's old then asked to talk about something we disagreed on a few days ago. And shouted as my DH was driving dangerously after we argued. To the point he was shaking, but when I kept my mouth shut I felt calm and a bit down. When I shouted in the car my DD cried, she's 7 and doesn't like loud noises. I don't feel myself and I don't like how I am.

Context, I'm 33 with 2 children and I work. I've struggled with my mental health in the past and not currently on any medication, haven't for 7 years. I think I had depression after my youngest was born. The kind of disconnected not emotional type. But felt better the past year. I did a pgcert in that time, I put on weight studying. From June I've been unsuccessfully trying to loose weight, and get hungry....

I can't keep loosing my temper at my family. I don't know whether to go to health visitor, GP, call Samaritans or seek help from my work wellbeing service.

Your GP is your first port of call, unless you feel that you need urgent help – in which case the Samaritans are on 116 123.

You can see the issue, which is a big part, but you need help to see how to resolve it. For now but the diet on hold, it's not the right time.

Thank you very much @mothernurturetherapy . I have started reading that article and it's very good. I will read all the strategies later. I used to think I had an amazing upbringing and I still think my mother is amazing but I am a 3rd child and as a baby my older sister was ill, needing many hospital admissions. So my mum was likely not emotionally available. There was also a family video of us and friends children and I was crying, out of shot the whole time. I understand this was not every day.

Right now, I've not lost my temper again or gone to the GP so I'll give it a couple of weeks to see if things settle down with back to school and starting nursery.