Just cant cope

[Nemoandthefishes]

thats it really I cant cope with anything anymore. Kids drive me mad, when I go out I feel ill,sitting with friends and I feel like I want to cry, when I stay in anxiety eats away at me.
Dd1 and dd2 both ill at the moment and we are going to butlins on monday ds is so excited but I just want to curl up and not have to think about it as the nausea from the anxiety is killing me. Im not sleeping again and wish someone would do something to help me. I did have a psychatrist appt booked for yesterday then they cancelled and now have to wait another month..I just cant keep doing this round and round with no end. Sometimes I think I might actually be better then some unknown black cloud comes and shifts me back to this shit.

Hello.

Is there something small you could do today that would help? I am sorry this is how you feel.

I know you may have been told this but in case you haven't.

I also feel really sick when anxious and have panic feelings.

I was told by a psychologist once to breathe in slowly but to breather out for longer. Let me explain. I bteathe in slowly for a count of 3 and out for a count of 5. Apparently this changes teh carbon dioxide in your body and removes the feelings of panic and sickness.

I practice it when I'm feeling ok and I can now limit my panic attacks to a few minutes, if I do this quickly and reduce my nausea.

The good thing is I can do it anywhere too and none knows.

You do have to practice it though - no immediate fixes.

Try it if you want - it works for me.

thanks for replying
have suffered depression for about 4yrs now but the anxiety side is just getting worse and worse lately.However I am not on anythingn at the min as the ADs that did help so much ended up making me suicidal and want to SH again so stopped taking them and have been waiting for this psych appointment for 3mths since!!!
ADQ am practising the breathing as we type and must admit because you concentrate on it then it helps and stops the nausea

It's terrible you have to wait another month. Can your GP help and try to get you an emergency appointment?

I felt like you for years. Luckily for me my third lot of ADs worked and I have been 'normal' for a few years now with only rare panic/anxiety attacks that I know I can control and get through. I'm quite happy to stay on a small dose of ADs forever now although I know that's not for everyone.

I found it very hard to get anyone to understand and also to explain how bad I was feeling.

I really hope you get the help you need. xx

WTH gp is one of those if you are under someone else they wont touch you with a barge pole type!! Am actually taking both dds there this morning which is making me panic more

sorry you feel so stressed at the moment. i guess if the dds are ill that you've had very little sleep which will be exacerbating things. avoiding caffeine and drinking plenty of water should help a little too. the rescue remedy/aromatherapy pulse points stuff you can get may also help a bit, even if it's only a placebo effect.

thanks TC yes sleep has been limited past few nights but more so due to myself although Hs chest is bad again so am stressing about that.

I don't really know what to say. My DH had depression and now is doing a lot better. There is an end to depression, my DH is living proof. He finds small things each day help. Imagine breaking the day down into hours. What can you do before 11am? How about a walk with your kids? They look adorable on your profile.

Then between 12 an 1, how about making lunch time a bit different? Picnic under the table?

I know it probably sounds trite and I'm not trying to make light of how you are feeling.

LlAREGGUB thanks I know your not trying to make light of it. I do keep busy but it doesnt matter anxiety is always there. Luckily because DH starts his weekend off then holiday leave he has come home early today so he has just taken dds to nursery[ I just spent over an hour at the GPS with them this morning but thats another story] and he will entertain ds while I go for a lie down in a minute which is a bonus I dont usually get.

Nemo I was going to phone you later, have been worried not heard from you, then just saw your thread. I'm really sorry things are worse at the moment. You might not think it, but to me you are such a strong person and an inspiration. You've done brilliantly at coping and at helping me to do the same. Hang in there, will speak later, all my love xxx