Keep asking myself why I feel so deflated and down and compared to others I’m having a breeze of a year but when I assess everything that’s happened this year it probably is a lot.
Wondering where to ride the storm and just ‘feel’ or whether I should seek some help.
End of last year I found a lump in my breast, thank gos is was benign but I had to have it removed so was booked in for January. My op was cancelled twice on the days of surgery (once after sitting in the hospital marked up on a ward) before it was actually done.
A few days before my surgery I was verbally attacked in a very public meeting at work where non of the people who employ me (it’s a weird workplace in terms of structure) did anything to stop it happening. It was deeply upsetting.
I had my surgery.
Two of my colleagues retired and the workplace decided to replace them with 4 people which I had to recruit, doing almost 30 interviews. There was no cross over period I had to do my colleagues work until the new people started then train them. One isn’t doing great so having to performance manage them.
I started Mounjaro and at first it went well but then it made me violently ill on a frequent basis. I’ve come off it now and I’m still having stomach cramps occasionally.
Finally, our dog is ill - he’s waiting on an operation and we’re having to self finance a lot of the cost.
When I write it down it does seem like a lot.
I don’t want to be on medication long term but feel in such a low mood all the time.
Not sure the point of this post really, just a brain dump I guess.