Oh! Perimeneopause too!
I can not cope and don't know how I am going to get through it all.
Lifelong issues with ocd, panic, anxiety and depression all eventually lead to an inattentive adhd diagnosis this year, at the age of 52.
And decades of digestive and gynae issues which have really taken it's toll on me physically. Diagnosed with ednometriosis and adenomyosis 18 months ago and now on a waiting list for a hysterectomy which scares the life out of me and has made the anxiety a million times worse (not to mention my digestive issues which are now daily).
Between my dad, my sister and I (and 2 carers) we look after my dear mum who has been suffering from Alzheimer's for 7 years and breast cancer for the last year. To make issues worse mum fell and fractured her neck 3 weeks ago and has been in hospital since. Physically she is doing ok but the hospital stay is having a very detrimental effect on her dementia, she can no longer talk well or articulate herself which is heartbreaking. Just seeing her like that is breaking my heart and pushing me further into depression.
I feel rotten. I am exhausted and sleeping from 7pm until 8am. I don't work anymore due to my physical issues and worry constantly about money and the pressure it's putting on my poor dh (but he never complains, bless him). I feel constantly nauseated, have stomach pains all the time and feel the need to use the loo so much throughout the day. This makes eating difficult and I have no desire for food at all but do try to eat throughout the day.
I am trying to keep to the same daily routine but it is so hard. I walk my dog every day to try to get my exercise in as I know it's good for my mental health (I used to exercise all the time but I am too exhausted now). I don't smoke or drink alcohol, I only drink water. I listen to the Calm app daily, I do yoga stretches every night but nothing is helping to ease this feeling.
I have tried so many antidepressants but they mess with my already messed up digestive system (as do the adhd meds), I have tried hrt but that made the endo pain worse. I don't know what to do. My GP doesn't know what else to try. I have had CBT and counselling but it hasn't helped either. I have seen many people say betablockers help but these have never been suggested by my GP, has anyone tried these for the physical issues from anxiety? I know they wont help with the mental aspects but the physical ones trigger my mental health and then I spiral into a vicious cycle.
Urgh, it's the combination of so many things hitting me at one time which is making me worse, I hate watching my dear mum slowly dying, it is actually driving me insane, then the physical issues start which makes things so much worse. I can not catch a break from it all.
What can I do, has anyone been in a similar position and regained their mental and physical health?