Hello. I've been diagnosed with the above today. I had my second baby 12 weeks ago however, I suffered with this after my first birth I just never admitted it and lied to any nurse or doctor who assessed me. After my first I think I started feeling better around 1.5 years after but not 100% but thought it a good idea to try again. I thought this time I'll be better because I know what I'm doing. Wrong. I've been much worse than before and the whole family is suffering. Anyway I was referred to perinatal mental health who have been brilliant and today I spoke with a doctor who officially diagnosed me and prescribed sertraline 50mg which I'm nervous about taking.
I've been bad like my relationship is rocky, my toddler gets my angry outbursts the poor thing and I had to ask myself if I bonded with my baby.. I think that speaks for itself. I love them both but on bad days I wish I could just run out the door and leave them even for an hour! On bad days I do the bare minimum of parenting. Or so it feels and I then lay awake at night feeling so guilty.
I'm doing the right things, exercise x3 times a week, getting involved with family a bit more and obviously now the therapy but I still have more bad days then good. I'm terrified of medication as is my partner as we both seen our parents be on meds their whole life and struggle with the right dose, coming off them and spiraling. I already told the doctor I want and end plan but she thinks once I get used to them I'll want them for the long run.. I don't want to be on them say 1 year from now. I do think I need an boost for now but I'm terrified!
Any experiences on this drug and if you eventually came off them permanently?
Sorry for the ramble...