I know I need help and I don't know where to go so I guess I'm venting on here and hoping someone else has felt how I have and can help as I can't carry on like this anymore. I'm going to lose everyone and I haven't even got many in my life.
I loathe how i look, hate my body and can't bare to be naked not even by myself. I'm going through peri menopause but I've never been confident just hid it better when I was younger. Ofc my body has changed since having children but strangely I felt better when I was pregnant.
My husband is a lovely man pays me compliments but he's just recently liked a colleagues picture on LinkedIn she looked stunning and a figure I would love to have again which I know I won't (c section hang) I told him it's made me feel insecure but he played it down said he didn't even notice or remember liking it but i know he's lying, she was in a bright red dress you wouldn't not notice that I'm not silly. Not the girls fault she's beautiful and successful and I guess I am jealous as I know I'll never look like that or have a career to be proud of. I know I'm feeling sorry for myself and having a pity party but at this point I can't see a way out.
When I go to sleep at night I pray I dont wake up, as I'm so sick of feeling like shit about myself feeling jealous of pretty slim girls etc....
Please don't leave any nasty comments just scroll past this if you're annoyed as trust me I m annoyed at myself for feeling this way. I just need help to like myself again any tips welcome.