I've had a lot going on in my life in the past 3 years and honestly seems to be getting worse.
When ds was around 10 months we got told he had a hole in his heart, very traumatic time tbh I blamed myself for not knowing something was wrong with him. I later found out I was pregnant, I ended up having an abortion ad i felt my ds really needed me and his surgery could've been any day. I regret the abortion massively it's on my mind everyday. Ds had his op and is doing amazing.
My gran passed around a year later, I was do close to my gran and I miss her enormously.
My df fell and broke his hip, I've been running around after him for the past 6 months with very little help from my "d"b I'm honestly mentally and physically drained from going hospitals, care homes to finding my dad somewhere suitable to stay and helping with shopping's etc
A few weeks ago my dm found out she has cancer.
I feel like everything is falling apart around me as i try to work, be a mum to two boys, help dm and df but there's just not enough of me to go round and I'm sinking.