I can't stop thinking about this being my next step. I know how I'd do it and have written notes to those I care about the most.
A part of me feels relief that I've a choice. Another part of me feels devastated about the hurt I'll cause those who care. My mind is constantly cycling around this. I can't get it to stop. I'm so exhausted.
I'm already on medication, so I'm not sure there's anything a professional can do to help. I've had therapy, too. I'm still broken.
I am struggling to see other options.