Hiding in the kitchen

[YorkshireMum28]

I have 2 DD, 3y/o and a 10 month old.

I have had to close the baby gate and sit on the kitchen floor for a few minutes to gather my thoughts. I am struggling. I feel like I am always disappointing one of them while tending to the needs of the other. I am needed constantly. I am ready to cry, to walk out, to throw myself out of a window or something. I feel like I can’t do this anymore. It’s hard. Not every day is like this, but today is! I promise I’m ok. Just one of those days. This is normal, right?

Please fill this thread with a glimpse in to the future. When will it get easier?

Kindly OP, to want to throw yourself out of a window isn't normal. Please visit your GP or if you still have a health visitor, speak to them. You may be suffering from post natal depression, it's not your fault and very common and treatable, it doesn't make you a bad mother so don't beat yourself up. Having two children is difficult, especially at that age.

I agree with pp.

In the here and now, can you get yourself a cup of tea, and call someone you know in real life to come and be with the kids while you make some appointments.

I didn’t read it as you being suicidal. Just desperate for a break. In which case yes I’ve been there. Any childcare other than you? Where’s dad?
Mine are now 15 and 22 but I will admit to hiding in the toilet sometimes at about that age. It’s bloody hard OP.

@YorkshireMum28 yeah been there. My are 19 and 22 now but I once strapped them into the pushchair put the pushchair in the garden and my DH came home to me sitting in the dog bed with the dog in floods of tears. That was PND and PNA. XX