My husband died unexpectedly in January. Everything about it (including the year leading up to his death) has been extremely traumatic.
I’m carrying unendurable levels of guilt, regret and sorrow, and it’s clear that I’ve slipped into a major depression.
I can barely be bothered to do anything. I don’t want to see anyone or go anywhere. I don’t sleep well, and it takes me ages to get going in the morning. I’m vaping too much, and I’ve just squandered two weeks of annual leave from my (futile, pointless, unchallenging, underpaid p/t) job and I’ve barely done anything at all. I live alone (no kids) and I’m pretty isolated socially due in large part to the region where I live.
I have given up, basically. I cry a lot.
Perhaps ADs would be sensible at this point. I’ve never taken them before and would prefer not to, tbh. But I’m sinking rapidly. I know nothing about them.
Which would be the best AD to go on, for someone in my situation who’s never been on them before?
Thank you.