Need help with mental health unsure where to ask for help

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I feel very passively like I want to die. I think about it frequently during the day and more at night. I couldn’t commit suicide I don’t think as I feel I’m not brave enough to. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up. I want to lie down and just die somehow that’s not my fault.

I am a single parent to my children but I just don’t want to keep on anymore. I’m exhausted. I could sleep any time of the day and then stay awake at night when I want to sleep. I work very hard and yet have no money and I do stuff constantly with the kids and yet they are never content.

i don’t find interest or joy in anything . I sometimes feel the sun on my face and it sort of reminds me of a nice feeling but in a detached way. Same with my children if they hug me or do something nice I feel a sort of ‘I should feel something’ feeling. It’s quite out of body and strange.

people at work would describe me as a trouper or cheerful probably.

but I don’t want to be a trouper and I don’t feel cheerful. I’m just waiting for it all to stop or be over somehow.

I tried booking an appointment with the Dr a week ago and they gave a telephone appt on 17th which feels very far away.

online search had a number for men and one for young people and one from the nhs but seems pointless calling that as I’ve tried the Dr. Also I’d feel like a liar calling a suicide line I don’t want to kill myself.

anywhere else I can ask for help?

Sorry I don’t have any advice but I empathise with you x

Maybe try 111, they have a dedicated mental health helpline now.

What you are experiencing are common symptoms of depression. NHS Talking Therapies will assess you within a month and offer it's services if you are experiencing anxiety or depression. Refer yourself. Also discuss anti-depressants with your GP.

I’m sorry you’re feeling like this x

I agree with @littlejo67 - you sound depressed. There is help available 💐

Call GP back and ask for a more urgent appointment. Or email / do an e-consult.

Do you get access to a mental health helpline with work at all?

or:

Call Mind's support line on tel:+44-300-102-1234 0300 102 1234.
This is a safe space for you to talk about your mental health. Our advisors are trained to listen to you and help you find specialist support if you need it.
We're open 9am to 6pm, Monday to Friday (except bank holidays).

I once called the BUPA mental helpline that I had access to in my old job. I had never done anything like that before but it was so nice to talk to someone.

Agree with a previous poster - contact your gp again and say you need an earlier appointment. I’m not a dr but when I was depressed I had a feeling as if not quite connected - like watching myself live a life and it’s a symptom of depression. Anti depressants worked for me.

I'm so sorry OP. Did the receptionist ask you what the appointment was for and did you tell them briefly how you're feeling? You should Definitely get a quicker appointment, I phoned not long after having my baby for mental health and was seen pretty much straight away. There's so much help out there, and if not for you do it for your kids who love and need you very much

I have always found Samaritans very good. Just an impartial person who listens.
This could help you until a GP sees you .
How old are your children? My health visitor was excellent when I had little ones.

There is also the Samaritans 116123. Free to call on any mobile. Their opening hours have changed to 6pm to midnight weekdays and 4pm to midnight.

The Samaritans used to be open day and night but it has changed in the past 2 years. Not sure when. Perhaps less volunteers work on it due to the cost of living crisis these days who knows.

Good luck with it. I am a single parent and now that ds is much older ie 20 I no longer get depressed. I have been single parenting ds for 20 years this August so do understand. Take care.

You don't have to be feeling suicidal to call the Samaritans it can also be for emotional support.

Sorry me again. Sometimes the answerphone comes on when you ring saying evenings only but it depends which part of the country you happen to connect to. They are still in fact open 24 7 which is cheery. Good luck once again.

I’m unsure what to say to them to be honest. I think I’d be using up their time when I don’t even know what help I want or need.

They are an emotional support service so will be glad to offer a listening ear. The listeners must enjoy listening in a non judgemental way as volunteers.
They are not allowed to give advice though. Personally I think it would be worth a whirl. xx

Don’t worry about that. To know what you need is the drs job. You just need to say honestly how you feel. You can always write it down and show them.

Might be good just to talk. Have you tried writing things down? Like you've wrote on here, sometimes it's easier to write it down and you can truly see how you're feeling, use it for the doctors or Samaritans

Like a diary/journal. It helps me when I'm feeling down

NHS talking therapies would be a good place to get your name down for op. Please don't worry about wasting peoples time, people that work in talking therapies want to help
Also ask about starting an anti depressant
Samaritans is always available to talk to
You could do a Google and see what free courses/groups/therapy services are available in your area. Many areas will have women's only groups or more groups on mindfulness, relaxation etc

I’ve found the Samaritans helpful many times. You don’t have to worry about what you might say, it’s okay, that’s what they are there for - to listen. It can help so much to talk to someone who doesn’t know you who is just ‘there’. Good luck.

The Samaritans listen and you don’t have to be suicidal to call. It is also 24/7 - I presume you are in the UK. I have been (sometimes am) in a similar place. I’m just having some CBT. I was sceptical but I think it will do some good.

These may be passive suicidal thoughts or intrusive thoughts (you need proper qualified help I’m just a fellow person experiencing this).

I have phond and literally burst into tears on the phone to them. They then asked me to break down (no pun intended ) what was concerning me.
They will have come across everything. As PP stated, they are trained

Download the StayAlive app OP.

Yes! It’s brilliant.