I am back on the slipery slope again

[Beauregard]

shit
Feeling very anxious and panicked tonight

Shit see my spelling is worse than usual

Yes, but you know what.....you are able to recognise it. That's a GOOD thing.

VVV is right.

Spill. Whats going on? In every bit of your life?

I hate feeling weak though ,that is the worst thing,i feel i am admitting defeat if i go to the doctors.

feck dd2 up and screaming
think i will join in

there's a thread just started about anxiety etc

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/2100/533382?stamp=080520233918

Its not defeat. Its recognising that life is too short to waste fucking around with a shitty head. It took me years to go to the doctor.

Work really stressing me out

Never enough sleep

Dont want to go down ad route as have tried most and they do not work.Have had 7 sessions of CBT (last year which i waited over 12 months for)and i was dismissed and told i was ok to carry on alone because i had 3 good weeks(despite my moods following that pattern)
God i wish someone could knock me out

PFNM- I don't know your story, but can only say to you what I do to my dear friend who has similar moments. We sit down and ignore the stuff around us, she talks and I listen, we laugh where we can and accept that everyone has times when they feel overwhelmed. Sometimes a night's sleep is enough to equip us to face the next day and sometimes you need a little help.
So, perhaps it's a time when you need more help.. what do you need and who can help.. and will you ask for the help you need?
I hope you get some sleep and some help but in the meantime keep talking to us.
Take care.. and I'm sending you a virtual cup of tea and a shoulder if need be.

Can you get out of the house, or are you on your own with dcs? I get so panicked sometimes I can't sit still and either go for a drive or walk round block (I'm in east london though, so it's mixed feelings), but sometimes the cold air helps.

I had 5 sessions of CBT 2 years ago. Was as useful as a fart in a breeze.

Now I have a counsellor who I really like and I think might dig a little deeper along a better path. A different counsellor might work wonders.

Fight with everything (diet, water, sleep, herbal stuff, photos, flowers, friends, shopping, anything). You are in a ditch right now and you will come up again. You must give in for the moment until the worst passes. Find your safety zone. When it passes, then you can plan the fight.

frumpygrumpy,

you sound a little pissed off with the whole life situation. CBT does indeed suck !

Frumpygrumpy-You have described the benefits of my CBT experience perfectly.

Thankyou Robinpud for the tea
I dont have anyone in real i can rant to, and tbh i wouldnt feel comfortable doing so because although a have a couple of friends they have enough of their own problems and i would worry about putting on them.

chunkychips-I cant go out as i have dd2 and the decorator has just come.I have to go to work at 1 so no chance of any head space today.

Still feeling very anxious and trying to muster the energy to put on a happy face for work.

starsparkle, whilst the CBT I had back then was shit, I do feel I am making progress with the counsellor I am seeing now. We are taking it much, much slower (I don't like the whole "we just need 6-20 sessions to sort you out" attitude of CBT) and delving a little deeper.

PFNM, if you have good friends its not always a bad idea offloading on them a little too, even if they have problems you think are too much. People can feel better when they feel useful. Your friends may get a little something out of it too. Don't deprive them of being your friend. They may feel worse because they feel they are the only one feeling crap.

Hope today goes ok. As I said, find your safety zone and stay in it until this lifts a little. Do whatever it takes to get through each half day.

Thanks frumpy

how are you feeling tonight?

Hi chunkychips

Feeling a bit less wobbly tonight thanks, think instead of sticking my head in the sand i should be proactive about it.Once i get this week out of the way mind you (loads on)and get some sleep.

Thanks for looking in,it helps to know people care as it feels so lonely
xx

I'm checking in on you as well and you know that I'm on MSN if you want to chew the fat.

Thanks Margo
You ok?

I am ok

glad you're a bit better. Why can't you be more like your dog?! (profile)

Thanks I wish it was my dog chunkychips (i found it on google)

Margo you dont sound very sure,feel free to unload if you arent.

Footie is on - it's tense here. My heart is beating very fast.

watching too.

ooh i hate football