I have a 4 year old daughter who is autistic and is under the observation for ADHD, PDA and sensory processing disorder. I have all the relevant organisations around me and she has frequent doctors appointments regarding melatonin medication. I am really struggling with her and I have 2 other children. Another daughter who’s 7 and a 3 year old son. All of them whine, fight, scream and answer back. Not only doesn’t my autistic daughter sleep, my son is now waking up all hours of the night and doesn’t go back to sleep. I’m currently taking antidepressants as I was feeling extreme suicidal and couldn’t handle all the house cleaning and house chores by myself. I am married and my husband works full time but doesn’t help me with the house chores. I’ve asked him to help me but he will do 1 job and think that’s enough. I try to communicate with him but it ends up in an argument. He always takes it as if I’m trying to wind him up, be mean to him or I just want an argument. He changed his job from a physical job to an office job. I wasn’t expecting much from him when he was doing his physical job but now he has more energy and I’m expecting him to help me more especially as I am depressed. With all these pressures from my children and my husband, I feel mentally and physically exhausted. I feel what’s the point anymore in doing anything or being here. I tidy and clean the house and everyone treats it like absolute sh*t. I’ve been so close to telling my husband to leave because just looking at him playing games on his computer or scrolling on his phone infuriates me than wanting to spend time with me or help me tidy up. I just feel his priorities aren’t like how an adults should be. He’s a child. I’m getting to the point where I feel like I am going in circles and I am out of control. I have been convincing myself for the past 4 years that it’s fine and it will get better. I feel stuck and I am so unhappy with my life and I feel so alone and unwanted.