Basically the past few months since march has been hell for me. I do try and keep somewhat of a positive attitude but it's been hell.
I am faces a few different t challagnes in my life.
The biggest thing is harassment from a group because personality disordered individual and there isn't any professional to help me stop it because likely they are afraid of their own livelihoods being ruined. It's long term harassment. If it wasn't for this I think I would be able to face other challagnes.
There is a huge burden on me now.
Last week I am to a place where I thought, I need a massage in my life right now. I took what I could get last minute for last weekend and I booked a back, neck, should hot stone massage. It was lovely.
However I am now back to my ordinary every day life.
Work was incredibly intense today. Home was so stressful too.
I would love to book a full body massage. This is what I really think I need and I needed it last week too. I have so much tension and heaviness all over my body.
I am thinking I I book something for this weekend should it be too much? Will I book with the same establishment or go somewhere else. See if some other massage therapist can take me.
I decided this week that I will likely try and get a monthly massage from now on until the foreseeable future.
My head and how it feels. It feels like people ahs just kicked and smashed my head in without ever touching me. This is the pressure in my life right now. I was nearly put to tears in work today.