I really feel I am struggling a bit at the moment, but feel a bit guilty posting here, as it’s nothing as serious as most people on this board are going though.
i struggle to get up and start my day, and the highlight at the moment is just going back to bed at night. I struggle to motivate myself for work (self employed and work from home). My energy levels are zero and I cry most days. I just feel empty and exhausted. I comfort eat which doesn’t help my energy levels and I can’t stop for more than a few days.
i am a single parent to three teenagers. One doing a levels and one with undiagnosed adhd who needs more support. I run two businesses. One, which is half my income I run with my ex. He can sell it at any time and there is nothing I can do about that. He often mentions doing that in the next year or two and when he does I cannot pay my mortgage. I have no energy for a plan b and I feel as though I have an axe hanging over me all the time waiting to fall.
my ex is also being difficult on maintenance, he pays me 55% on gov min, but if I push any harder I know he will sell the business. I feel sick and exhausted arguing with him every month about sending maintenance which he changes on a monthly basis
i think it is my circumstances damaging my mental health rather than being internal if you know what i mean, but I am trapped in my circumstances. I feel no joy in anything in life and I feel guilty for my children that I am not setting them a good enough example. I help them with study, but I just want to be in bed by 8! (I manage to stay up until 9 and then hide in my bed)
sorry, that was long. I just need to write it down