am finding life so had at moment m but i need to be the strong one

[trace2]

since dd been born a year in june shes had problems spent most of her time in hospital and still no dx, my dh as been finished from work due to depression ,he carnt cope with dd illness ive had to be the strong one! on top of all this i look after my dad ( am not complaining i love them all and i dont mind) but now dads had an heart attack, and hes back home but ill and i found a lump in my breast( yes been to gp) told him how i felt about every thing and am finding it all hard he daid am sad not depressed so can not give me meds for it.

sorry am just feeling so down and struggling to cope at the moment i needed to get it of my chest

(((hug)))

Oh trace

FWIW, i think your a star.
You have alot of responibilty and you do so well.

Are they any closer to finding a diagnosis for C?

WHta has happened about the lump?

Not sure what to say so will send you a (((hug))) Sometimes life is just shit and I think it just sends thngs to see just how strong we are .....

thank you all,i just needed to tellsome one as i carnt tell dh

nbg i have to go back in 6 weeks to check again

and no they have thought of diffrent things about chloe, but then tested and its not our nurse thinks shes may have a mild cp it fits with every thing she does, ie sezures low weight gain(14lb 7oz) at 11m can not eat lumps, when she camando crawls she drags her right side and other things to many to list

Awww bless her.
I hope they can give you a definate answer soon.
Its no wonder you feel like you do.

6 weeks to wait!

Just wanted to send and support.

You are really going through it at the moment.
agree with FPE and the fact that the dr says you are not depressed shows how strong you are. Keep fighting

Hope the tests come back clear but think 6 weeks wait terrible.

((((bighug))))

Do you have a lovely friend you can off load to?

Do you get any practical help at the mo?

Any family near you?

Ask for help from those that you can, go back to the Drs if you feel you're not getting anywhere and this is more than a down phase (you have much to be down about but it could be you are down because life is shit at the mo which is a totally natural reaction in your situation )

Your hubbie is depressed and you have your Dad to care for and your lo is in hospital so you need to try to take care of yourself.

You are allowed to shout, rant and rave about how unfair life is for you at the moment, rant on here or if you need a one to one (is it were) you can always email me on [email protected]

thank you for all the suport i could not come back on straigh away i got upset reading your replys, my family as in sister and brothers have got to much on at the moment to bother them, and again i am the youngest but i do all for dad! and my mil is no help only see her when she wants to see us which is not very often. tbh i think its cos am scared of losing dad as i know it wont be long

figured you needed a bigger hug

so sorry you are so down (understandable)

sometimes everything hits at once doesnt it.

2 yrs ago my mum had a heart attack and has ongoing serious MH issues. also has an eating disorder. dad has crohns, Dp had 6 months off work last yr with a suspected brain tumor (wasnt and DD has dyslexia, discalculia ADD and CAPD and mild OCD, so i understand when you feel like another straw will break your back and there isnt any time for you to fall apart.

It is hard enough having to support you DH with his depression and having DD in hospital without the extra sadness of your dad.

i truly feel for you and if you feel that you cant cope go back to your gp and explain all.

do you have any close friends?
Is there anyone at the hospital that could support or help you?

If I were still living there Trace I would help you out in a flash.

Do your older dd and ds look after ds2 and C?

awww thank you nbg, no they both work full time and they both moved out now! saying that dd had j over night last monday as c was going to threate. once again spent all day today in hospital

Trace2, you have so much to deal with all in one go. Things will get easier, they have to. You have a lot of BIG hurdles to overcome but you will, I promise. I think you are amazing x x

Trace2 - how are you today?

thanks isa and muppetgirl, am ok i think, just going to dads to lock him up for night and make him supper

Trace, take a CD in the car and sing along at the top of your voice!

...ABBA gold is awlays a favourite in our car!

Abba is a good idea. I have a Cher CD and a Nolan sisters one which I keep for stress relief!