My eating is so disordered.....also drinking too much

[electra]

I have been trying not to eat for a while now. I'm not sure why. I will only eat fruit and rice cakes when I do eat. Sitting down to eat a meal is very difficult and very rare for me these days...

I use not eating as a way of feeling in control. I'm just so hungry - and I also deliberately exercise a lot. I am so hungry and I know this is crazy. I won't eat bread, pasta or anything with carbs and also won't eat anything with a significant amount of fat.

I post on here variously as I have some kind of mental health disorder but my psychiatrist hasn't decided what dx - he suggested manic depression but wasn't 100% sure.

I don't really expect replies but I just wish I could get out of this crazy way of thinking. My children (both girls) are noticing that I don't eat...

I have resolved to give up alcohol for good this time as I cannot drink in moderation.

smoe of what you say rings bels here too.i enjoy being hungry.haet eatnig and drink to much

Yes I enjoy being hungry too. The thing is that it affects my life so much because I can't do social things and other people notice.

you both feel this way.

When I feel I need to 'control' my food - I make sure I have vegtable soups and fool my mind that they are a drink! It also mean the kids see me eat!

At the moment though I am in a stuffing my face mood!!!!!

Sick as it may sound, I am glad there are other people with eating difficulties. I'm phobic of eating food incase it kills me, and I have terrible trouble in restaurants finding something to eat. I know this hasn't helped you at all, but it's good to know there are other people out there who can't eat. I don't feel so weird

i told the gp ;ast week that not eating made me feel high and he and said well that is a new to me

not sure what to say i do eat quite sensibly mostly tho because it is soemthing i can do^ reasonably knoledgably i have however just drink a bottle of wine havingg been really good on caffeien and alchohol for ten days

obvs no advice

no idea

just you know you should eat no harm not eating carbs i dont eat them either

what about

bananas
apples
rapsberries

oats with granola and raspberries and orgsanic milk is what i have for breakfsast

that is there are carbs in most foods

Hi zippi - hope you're ok. This is just one of my phases - I can usually pull back before I get too thin. I have managed not to drink all weekend but I was very tempted....I'll have to see how it goes. I eat fruit mostly - I suppose it's better than nothing!

apart from being needy i am fine you should join 10/10 on here all i do is eat fruit

it is easy ntoo

HUGS electra - nothing constructive to add, but the thread title rang a lot of bells with me

PCx

i often refer to my anorexia as mt evil twin, and my addiction. it is frightening and very lonely. the short term buzz you get from not eating is intensified by the effects of the alcohol. how long has this been happening? are you on any ads?

hi lissie

too many of us around, no?

couldnt agree more!

although my weight has been good for a while i think like an anorexic and thats a pretty tough chain to break!

yes it's all in the thinking isnt it? I dont think the distorted thinking patterns ever go do there?

electra - sorry for the diversion - but letting you know you ahve empathy on here

HUGS

PS my eating habits are appalling atm (as is my speling, sic) also my drinking

Thanks everyone, it's good to know that I'm not the only one. I'm not currently on ADs but I have a psychiatrist and he is trying to figure out what is going on and my mood patterns etc but the last psych I saw thought manic depression...

Well I have always struggled variously with my mental health (anxiety, depression, obsessive thinking...) but it seems to have come to a head last year finally after a few major stressful events.