I broke down at the doctors

[Needafriend01]

I have been struggling with my mental health for years. I have been on a low dose of fluoxatine for most of that time. The last 6 months my mental health has taken a nosedive and I finally plucked up the courage to make an appointment with the doctor as I can't carry on like this anymore. Pretty much as soon as I sat down I started crying (poor doctor, he was only a young man).

I have been having arguments with my husband, breaking down at work because of the children's behaviour (I work in a school) and just feeling like I'm not important. I don't have any close friends so I'm pretty isolated.

The doctor has increased my medication, given me some details about talking therapy which I've signed up for so I'm waiting to hear back. He mentioned about getting out more and finding things to do for myself, like walking or a hobby.

I read a lot, which is my escapism I guess and me and my husband go out walking sometimes but he is always struggling with some kind of injury so we hardly go out anymore.

Don't know why I'm posting really but don't really have anyone to talk to.

Oh the instant crying when you are feeling rubbish and start telling someone, we’ve all been there , doctor won’t have given it a second thought.

good for you for having courage to just do something and admit you are struggling that’s a big thing. Writing stuff down can help, it’s like you are talking to someone and getting out as well especially now the weather is getting a bit better.

There's something about a doctors office when you know its just you and them and they are hopefully going to help. That brings all the emotions you have been suppressing to the surface.
It sounds like you made a really brave decision and the right one.

I’ve cried many times at the doctors - it is good that you are not hiding it .
The GP will have seen it before or should have some clinical knowledge of depression signs .
I also love reading and audio books too (these I can escape with when doing chores etc )
Ive worked in schools and it is a tough gig - can you confide in a trusted colleague / even the head teacher . They have a duty of care to staff as well as kids !!
Maybe go out for walks alone if husband is injured !
All the best .

Thanks for the replies. I'm still feeling low, work has been very full on this week.

I did confide in a friend/colleague, but barely seen or spoke to her since.

I just feel lonely 🥺

I feel like I always cry at the doctors…to the point I think I should pop in mid summer break feeling healthy, caught up on sleep and smiling - just so my GP knows I don’t always cry!!