Thankyou to who ever takes the time to read my post I'm not sure what I'm expecting to get out of this but I feel so low ATM and don't have anyone to offload to.
First of all I'm 31 mum of 3 DC ages 14,12 10
My main issue is I work as a carer for my brother who is 27 with severe disabilities I work 3 sometimes 4 nights a week from 7pm-7am but I hate it I have no social life due to my working hours and I work on my own then during the day my kids are at school and partner at work from 7am-5pm. I'm so lonely and fed up but I feel trapped due to financial difficulties we need me to be working full time but it's difficult to do that when having the children. My relationship isn't great and I think alot of that is due to my mental health and I have become resentful as I feel I'm the primary care giver and provider for the children he gives me £1000 a month and I'm paying my full months wage on bills food and kids and I'm just ment to be OK with him paying not even half of the bills I'm so fed up of struggling every month with nothing to show and feel so alone in it all I try to communicate how I feel with my partner but it's like hitting my head of a brick wall :( thanks again for reading it feels a little better just writing this all down but honestly some times I wish I could just close My eyes and not wake up xxx