Hi, just thought I’d come on here to see if anyone can relate or has any advice/words. I don’t feel like telling family or friends & I feel alone and misunderstood anyway. Im not going to go too much into it but ive had very bad experiences in life from childhood up til present. Childhood SA, r@pe as an adult along with the usual stuff such as being best friends with someone my whole life then they turn on me etc. it seems i attract terrible terrible people especially men and I’ve had terrible crimes committed against me. Rape, theft etc, financially used for my money too. I’ve been so unlucky with people and life & yes ive been told my issues are attracting these people but I just can’t stop it. So I now distance myself and keep to myself i don’t care to meet new people or talk to existing friends anymore or date because I always end up getting badly burnt.
my ex of years on& off (very toxic relationship he is an alcoholic emotionally unavailable and takes drugs, parties with women etc) keeps sniffing round me and won’t ever leave me alone. Ive blocked him and he still finds ways. I feel so depressed I don’t see the point of life my life isn’t worth living anymore and I’ve started to drink more and more. I binge drank & had a massive comedown recently i was getting heart palpitations too & just very very down.
im looking for work and trying my best to neaten up my life but I’m not getting anywhere. I feel like I’m not meant to be here- life isn’t for me.
i literally talk to one person and that is it.
I don’t feel there’s any point anymore