I’m feeling so low and depressed I don’t know what to do.
I have a job I love but my confidence is low after an horrific experience with an old work, I have worked hard to build my confidence up but this week I have felt constantly low and worthless. I am mourning my sisters passing and it was her birthday this week so may be it’s that. I always felt aligned with my sister, she was a single mum, didn’t drive or own property and I’m the same (although I don’t have children), all our other siblings are all settled down with mortgages etc.
This sounds very selfish, but I wonder why my sister that has passed isn’t doing anything for me after all I have done for her, I made myself ill trying to help her the last 12 months of her life. My younger sister is pregnant which I am so happy about, but I am stuck in a property I hate as my neighbours are vile, I’m not pregnant and I feel stuck and unworthy.
I know this is completely irrational but this is how I feel.