Help/ advice needed please

[ThatSereneDreamer]

Hi all sorry its long
I have 3 children ds 5 ds 3 dd 2, their father chose to up and leave me as a lone single parent & hasn’t bothered with them since, doesn't take care of them financially, does not see them nothing, he is living his best life while im stuck looking after his kids with no family support or friends. My eldest son has autism& he is like have 3 kids in 1, my youngest DD cries constantly its like torture, theyre never happy. Mentally im completely done & heading for a mental breakdown, why should i be left to look after kids i didn't choose to have alone?! I cant even go out and do anything with them because my son will make a run for it & ive got 2 other younger ones to also keep an eye on! Ive come to the point where ive given up im so done! I havent had a break in 5 years! I need some kind of intervention before i leave and never come back, because as of right now, i do not want to be a mother, im just existing for my kids at this point, i don’t have a life, i don’t go out, i don’t speak to anybody just alone with my kids & its not fair on them having this life 😔

Hi didn't want to read and run and I hope someone will come along with some good practical advice. That sounds so so difficult for you and I'm sorry you've been left in this situation. Do either of the younger children go to nursery and is the eldest in school? Do you work or stay at home mum? You definitely need some help with this. I'm wondering if you've spoken to a health visitor or your GP? Your children are so young and at ages where they are quite a handful for anyone. That is one thing that will get easier as they get older but you obviously need some help now, and you deserve to be having a break from it all sometimes, everyone needs some time to themselves. What sort of help would you like to receive? Sending hugs, it sounds really hard