I'm getting myself in a right pickle and wondered whether anyone might have any strategies for bringing myself back down. I have a time pressured job, providing consultancy to clients where I spend sometimes my whole day talking. I have a chronic pain condition which is actually managed quite well at the moment, but that is made worse by sitting. I have three DC 7,9 and 14. My work is the busiest it's ever been.
I'm getting to the point where I'm nearly completely burnt out. Work is so full on that it takes everything from me. I finished tonight at 6:45 and had been online since 8:30. I did have an hour for lunch where I set an alarm and slept.
I fed the kids some tea I'd batch cooked at weekend and then took my dog out. I thought some exercise would do me good, but DD just talked and talked and I literally heard nothing. At one point I felt so overwhelmed that I thought I was going to be sick.
I've already had over a week off already this year when an op to manage the chronic pain went badly. Work are making redundancies and I cannot be low hanging fruit. I cannot lose my job. I cannot be not present for my kids.
Today, I felt like the sheer amount of talking was going to make my head explode. What can I do? How do I make more capacity in my head?
I can sleep fine for an hour at 12:30. Try and sleep at midnight and there's no chance. I don't see what I can drop out of my life. I just need to know how some people seem to have boundless ability to speak, listen, respond. It is not natural for me and I'm trying to understand what the trick is.