I feel so worthless not able to get work

[Auburngal]

This is the first time I’ve been on this thread. In Oct, I had no choice to resign from my supermarket job which I had for almost 17 years. As the store manager was a bully and took advantage and piss out of my dyslexia. I didn’t have much of an issue with dyslexia at work. Did have a few moments panic attacks caused by certain customers behaviour. Got fed up of crying, felt suicidal. Raised a grievance which did nothing.

Now I’m feeling worthless as I am getting fed up of not being able to get a job! I am back to the crying stage again. Feel like I have no purpose of living. Had about 14 interviews. Most didn’t bother to contact me and said to myself, if I don’t hear anything in a fortnight, call it a rejection. Feels like I will never get a job! I am only in this position because one BULLY! I did ask about positions at other stores, nope. Don’t want to work in retail especially when I was physically hurt by a shoplifter when he was running out of the store with the stolen stuff as I was walking in from helping an elderly customer. The company did nothing to support me.

I had no idea about AI ruining the job application process. It doesn’t understand transferable skills. Have done customer service for 23 years with some administrative work along side with certain tasks/jobs. Apply jobs with elements i have done, customising CV. Get rejected. If read by a person, they can see potential. Some companies still do read CVs by staff.

Im on sertraline. Later this month I will be on UC which I will feel ashamed of being on this. If it wasn’t for the stupid AI systems that scans CVs and companies being more understanding about dyslexia or me having it, I would have a job by now. I hate going to the job centre as i don’t deserve (that’s not the right word) the humiliation of being there.

I have understanding parents who have been able to help me. But I am getting seriously bored and lose interest easily. I want a job to able to buy nice things and save up for holidays.

Those who know me are upset about me not having a job yet. I say that I have seen the same job being advertised 2 months after I went to the interview. They are saying the companies are hiring the wrong people. The application process is not ND friendly. No idea how to combat that. I had interview questions sent to me in advance.

Sorry for long thread

Oh I’m really sorry. It’s terrible that you felt like you had no choice but to resign.

Job hunting is soil destroying and it’s hard not to take it personally when you don’t hear back but I unfortunately that’s how it is and has been for a long while. Gone are the days where you’d hear back about your application.

Could you do some volunteer work? More so just to get you out of the house and it might lift your spirits a little and could always lead to a job?

It is hard anyway, particularly if you are struggling with mental health issues on top of it x

If you were from my area (north wales) I know of jobs going in telesales (not where you have to cold call but regular customers who buy the products every week) and the money is so good aswell! It's used to be called Woodward food service but now it's called brakes! Have a look if there's a brakes near you it's a brilliant company to work for and the bonuses are really good x

Oh and have a look online you can sue companies now if you were forced out by bullies! I had the same problem years ago and I tell you something I'll never be bullied ever again , I'd rather go down fighting I've learned my lesson never let the bullies win or they keep on doing it xx

That sounds really hard for you. 14 interviews is great going though! To me that means you're getting past the AI bots that look at applications, it's perhaps the interview skills you need some help with?
Your worth is not based on whether you work. I'm sure you wouldn't look at another person and think they're worth less because they're unemployed.

14 interviews shows you have persistence. I’m stuck in a job I don’t like and just feel too scared of the interview process to make the leap. keep going.

I'm also stuck in job-seeking limbo - you are absolutely not alone in this. 75% of the time I don't even get a response, which is just rude imo. Then it's the interviews where you think you've done well only to be told they've hired internally - gee thanks. Do not give up, do not feel ashamed to be claiming benefits and if you have a decent employment advisor at the Job Centre and they can see you're really trying they can be really useful. Ask about courses - many of which will be free if you're entitled to benefits. Apparently it's an average of four months to find a new position - so half of us will be looking for longer than that. Once again, you are not the only one. Best of luck.