I don’t want to get up

[lullita]

I don’t want to do anything. I have a million things to do but I can’t motivate myself.

I’ve messaged my counsellor to get some stuff off my chest.

I feel bad because DS is seeing me like this.

How can I motivate myself?

Hi. I often feel like this. Its the most frustrating thing when other people say it but you need to just do it.

Sometimes I set a timer on my phone, for like 5 minutes and prepare myself and I know when the alarm goes off i have to get up.

Plan what you need to do so you dont end up back in bed. Make the bed too.

At one point I had DH lock the bedroom door and take the key with him so i couldnt get back in the room to sleep

Its really rough :(

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Thank you @Purrree

I’m very all or nothing and I know that when I do get going I’ll be at 100mph and will do everything. I wish I could pace myself more. Sometimes it feels like a chemical imbalance. I really thrive off adrenaline and when I’m flat, I’m really flat.

My bed is made and I’m on the sofa. I had a mini flurry this morning but now I’m back to can’t do anything again. I have to go out later but I just can’t get it together right now. Such a crap feeling.

If you can call your GP book in a blood test? I had very similar and was B12 deficient and anemic. I think a lot of women don't look after themselves when traumatic events happen (busy looking after others/kids) and forget to eat properly and often have deficiencies that are overlooked unless you pipe up and get bloods. It could also be a thyroid issue, so maybe ask for those to be done too before accepting any new meds.

I have been treated for anaemia in the past, and my iron levels are fine again now so I know it’s not that.
I don’t have any other symptoms to make me think it’s thyroid related.
I’ve often wondered if I’m cyclothymic. I have long highs followed by depression and inactivity on a fairly regular basis.

I don’t like the lows but I really love my highs, I am extremely productive and happy during those periods. I’ve been on ADs in the past but they made me feel so numb I didn’t even have my highs to compensate, so things were worse overall.

I don’t know what the answer is.

I think I have figured this particular low out. I’m headachey, a bit dizzy and lethargic.

I have also given up (processed) sugar for lent so wondering if it could be sugar withdrawal?

Not that I eat masses of sugar normally but it’s a change in my usual diet, so maybe.

I’m still eating fruit but obviously the sugar intake and absorption rate with that is much slower than with refined sugar.

Anyhow! Glad I sort of know now. Wonder if sugar withdrawal is a real thing.

You’re a parent so you need to set an alarm and jump up in a morning and kick start your day. Open the blinds, make the bed, make a good breakfast.

It’s unfair for a child to see their parent rotting in bed.

I try "Do 5" - put 5 things in the dishwasher / bin / dust 5:things etc if after I've completed 5 I try for another 5 often till the task is fully completed. Sometimes I can't manage more than 10.

I suffer from task paralysis / executive functioning difficulties but not sure what causes it. I wonder if it's PTSD or ADHD.