Not sure if this is MH or just normal reaction to life stressors.
I am a single parent to a severely autistic child who is not currently in education whilst trying to find a suitable placement. His behaviours are extreme - He doesn’t sleep, needs 24/7 supervision, everything in my house is being smashed/thrown. Being hit/headbutted/bitten/scratched/hit with objects all day everyday. Leaving the house is an absolute nightmare and safety risk to everyone involved.
I have had previous MH issues, but this feels different. I’m constantly irritated, tired to the point of my vision is blurry/I feel like I could pass out. I’m crying often(but in response to situations that have happened), and the thought of this situation continuing forever (child is unlikely to ever be able to leave home) honestly makes me hope I die young. I can’t eat properly as I’m just being screamed at/attacked when I’m trying to cook/eat and feel too stressed. I normally cope with stress by working excessively, which I know isn’t healthy but honestly it works for me but is not possible atm with child with me all the time so I have no way of relaxing.
Is this just a normal reaction to the situation or would antidepressants likely help? (I am also AuDHD if that matters)