Head exploding

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I wasn’t sure where best to post so will start here.
brief background- Singie mum for 10 years, dd left home last year , no family or local friends.
working in a job which doesn’t pay much. Feel constantly stressed. Dream about work most nights recently - have I forgotten something? Had proper nightmares too. I’ve not been told my performance is an issue and have been doing the job for many years.
Can’tdecide whatever to sell up and move away somewhere cheaper - would then have a whilenot working which could be a blessing or a curse.ie rest nice but would I get another job?
Head also full of things that went wrong when bringing up dd- eg why did she lie to me so much, was it my fault? She’s now very successful and has an amazing job and it’s lovely when we meet up!
I have very little confidence in my abilities and am terrified of trying new things. I feel exhausted with everything and feel like I’m wishing away the next 10 years or so until I retire.
Just hoping someone can help 😊

It's normal to be unsettled when there's a major life event, such as your daughter leaving home. Given the way she's turned out I really wouldn't worry about how you brought her up. Did you lie to your mum sometimes? I know I did!

How you react to changes is often influenced by your own childhood - those core beliefs that are accepted as truths and shape how we see ourselves. So if your family viewed changes and challenges as negative you will have adopted that mindset. But you can rewrite these rules, and boost your confidence in the same process.

Have a look at this article as a starting point - www.betterup.com/blog/core-beliefs

I’m wondering if going back on antidepressants will help. …

I just wanted to say that I could really identify with a lot of what you’re saying. Even right down to the should I sell up and move so much cheaper so that I can just find a minute to breathe and work out what on earth I want! as though I still have a child at home, I can’t really do that yet as they’re not ready. Anyway, I just wanted to say I could really identify with your post in loads of ways.

I really hope that you work everything out.. To be honest, it does sound like it might be a good idea to buy yourself somehow?
eckhart Tolle says we are always working with three options: accept, change or remove. Can you accept your current situation? Can you change it from the inside? If not, you may have to remove yourself. Xxx