Total fear whenever DH mentions money

[Carity]

i got lost while being a mum, lost confidence etc. DH would stand over me and yell at me to get work, I froze and lost all confidence. Things are a lot better now- we’ve had separate counseling.
ive finally found a path which is a freelance job teaching something I’m good at.
it was going ok, but I’ve suddenly hit a wall of fear and so I’m procrastinating ridiculously.
DH mentioning money on Friday has sent me back into the spiral of anxiety I used to feel. I can’t think or act, just icy water in my stomach and sick and frozen with fear.
how can I get going? How can I just be gutsy and determined? I so want to be go getting and proud of myself, not this wimpy sad (broke) housewife.
Please help me change my mindset!

I'm not too clear on what's going on.

Your husband would stand over you and shout? What else does he do? For example, does he control the finances, make belittling comments or criticise you?

What you're describing sounds like post traumatic stress. My guess is that you're in an abusive relationship and you will thrive away from him.

You might find this interesting.

Can you get back in touch with your counsellor to have a session?

He's the problem in your life.

I don't believe his abusive ways have gone away.

Go back to your counsellor. You can say it's to help you with job confidence and tell him NO more than that.

Thank you!