a very long one so I’m sorry!
please don’t judge I’m literally spilling exactly how my head is at the moment and I know it won’t make much sense to many!
So I have 3 children, my teenager is a typical teenager with an attitude, pre teen who is definitely hormonal and moody and an autistic adhd 3 year old with a lot of physical health problems to.
my house is constantly on top of me I catch up and 5 mins later looks like somethings exploded
o constantly have washing
bills are coming out my ears and I feel like it’s all on me to sort it
I work 4 days a week
My husband works 5 but always finishes earlier than me yet I come home and do all the cooking, cleaning, mum stuff, appointments, washing, shopping home work bath time bedtimes blah blah blah you get it I do literally everything.
the last few weeks he has a new van where he can pick the younger two up in as it has 3 seats so I thought brilliant I can just actually come home from my 8 hour shift (and getting up at 5am to make sure everyone has everything ready and is where they need to be in the morning) and get a bath sort tea ect and not have to do the school runs that take me an extra hour on my way home from my 45 minute drive home anyway!
literally anything I ask him to do is a big deal and it causes an argument!
I can’t sneeze without being accused of taking drugs because I survive off redbul and pro plus I’m a druggy apparently and it must be something more than that (because I barely sleep due to caring for my son during the night to) I DO NOT TOUCH DRUGS I never ever have and never would
when im stressed I come on my period- not sure why it’s frustrating but I always have and if I randomly come on my period I feel like I have to hide it because I’ll get accused of cheating on him 🙄 not sure how that works and we have been together 14 years he knows I have an irregular cycle!
he is picking at absolutely anything and everything I do
I have tried to speak to him he just ends up shouting at me
I’ve tried to tell him to leave but he won’t
he got arrested for assaulting me and they bailed him to our home address even when he was found guilty he just came home and blamed it all on me
I feel so trapped and I can’t see a way out
rhe kids blame me because they said I’m always so moody!
if I speak to women’s aid they ring social services who again think the sun shines out his arse!
the police have been called and they don’t make him leave because he tells them I’m crazy!
what can I actually do I can’t cope and I feel like just ending it all and everyone will be happier 😭😭😭