I am 28 weeks with my 2nd pregnancy. My 1st will be 3 when the baby arrives.
I had very severe pnd and anxiety with my 1st and it took me a long time to adjust to motherhood. Things are obviously much better now, I get a good balance of time to myself, life is easier and I love being a mum to my son.
I feel pregnant due to a concetraptive failure and my husband is really excited so decided to go ahead with it. I've been in denial about it all but now there's no turning back and I feel I'm stuck in a nightmare. The things that worry me are:
Lack of free time
Sleepless nights and juggling a toddler as well
The demands of two small children
Juggling 2 bed times and morning routines
Lack of downtime
Feeling overwhelmed
Lack of energy
And as they grow older, the arguing, juggling activities etc
Juggling full time work, finances etc.
I really wish I could wake up and not be pregnant. There's obviously nothing I can do about it now but I feel awful. I just want to run away, to turn back time when I wasn't pregnant or could have made a decision to terminate. I really can't stop crying about it all. I keep reading stories about how calm and peaceful and less stressful it is having one. I'll never have that now and completely hate what my life will become.