Mental Health slowly getting worse

[ginandlime]

Long story, multiple hospital admissions (physical health) during COVID, getting used to being a wheelchair user, escaped abuse and best friend of almost 50 years is dying.
I eat badly and not a great amount, never go over 1200 calories a day but I’m enormous due to steroids which I may have to increase again soon, I don’t really go out because it’s either too cold or no one to help. Also don’t want to due to needing teeth fixed, hospital job, no idea when. Friend visits are getting fewer and farther between. My OCD is so out of control I haven’t showered since before Christmas because I have convinced myself I’ll get Legionnaires, yes I’m aware of how stupid that sounds. (I am clean and hair is washed etc. Clothes washed regularly, house is clean). I can’t even get to the doctors surgery and because I’m autistic I’m crap in the phone.
I don’t really know what I’m asking for, need to get the overspill out of my head.

That is so much yo be dealing with, @ginandlime. I'm sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed and defeated by everything.

I know it's a bit of a cliche, but can you find one tiny thing amongst all of that that makes you feel comfortable and content for even a moment?

There's a lot going on.

Can you look on the Autistic Society website? They have lots of information on how to access services and could advise on a Drs appointment.

Are you on PIP? If not try Scope or Turn2us and they can advise on benefits and available money to get a carer. A carer could help you get out and about. If that's beyond your means, try Hub of Hope and the Autistic Society services directory to see what support is available in your area.

Anxiety UK offers reasonably priced therapy and you can do a free CBT course online called Beating the Blues regarding your anxiety.

Medication might help so obviously a chat with your GP is essential. If you're housebound can you arrange a home visit? Can a friend or family member support you? Can you write down what you want to say?

The Autistic society has online peer support groups you might find useful since you're isolated. I'm sorry to hear about your friend. You might find the Samaritans helpful, they're available 24/7.

Thank you both, for your advise. Strangely, I’ve managed to raed a whole book this week!
I shall try the autistic society.Much appreciated.

OCD Action look helpful, and have a helpline:
ocdaction.org.uk/i-need-support/

I was mentioning small things as while I have been stuck at home a lot and very distressed at times, I've found a heated blanket (on year-round) and audiobooks make things just a bit more bearable for me.