over the last nearly 5 years I’ve barely been back to my home town due to a toxic ex relationship that weighted me down way more then I admitted to myself, but on top of that I’ve so many years of family drama or bad news that was tied in that I’ve never ever seem to get over. I’ve spent nights just trying to get to sleep and the guilt washing over me that I’ve not been home much over the years. My parents are divorcing at the moment and selling our family home which has a lot of my stuff stored there. It was agreed that my mum would take my stuff to her next place but today she calls randomly whilst already trying sort the attic out and said she might need to fly me over for the weekend to sort my stuff out. It took me a good hour or so after the call to self soothe and since then I’ve had anxiety in the background at the thought of having to go over and equally not knowing when she actually wants me to do this. I felt I’m not ready to open Pandora’s box yet, I’ve just gotten to where I am mentally now after years.