I feel so icky with myself. My ex and co-parent has told me he isn't currently seeing anyone - I asked because I wanted to clarify that before he introduces anyone to our 9 month old son, I would like to be informed and vice versa.
However, I feel like he's lying. He told me he doesn't have the money to even be seeing anyone and reiterated that if and when he starts seeing someone and its serious enough to introduce our son, he will tell me.
I have seen online that he started following someone new in his new area, and he even speaks like her now. His best friend and her started following eachother, and her friend and my ex started following eachother.
I feel like an obsessed psycho that I dug enough to even know this. I should be well rid of him considering how he treated me. But now he's indifferent and I'm the one obsessing.
I feel sick that he might be seeing someone, even though he was already seeing my 'friend' whilst I was pregnant. This new girl seems outgoing, comical, shes into fitness, shes stunning and has a really fun happy vibe. Everything I'm not 😩 I feel awful about myself that I am so obsessed and stalkery but also that I shouldn't even be giving him a second thought?
I think its because I'm worried he will treat her properly, unlike me. I am also the only one of his harem that he didnt make his official girlfriend, although so far hes treated us all like crap.
Why did the other girls become girlfriends and got gifts and I never did? Does this mean that I really was the problem?
How do I move on? It's been over a year already 🥴 therapy doesnt seem to be helping yet. I most of my friends because of how I became during our relationship and also him turning people against me.
I feel like I am acting narcissistically - feeling jealous even though we arent together, basically stalking him online etc 😩 how do I cope with this?