I recently left a relationship due to daily crippling anxiety. I worried about the future every day and small things would happen like a problem with the house and I'd automatically go into fight or flight mode. I finally left without knowing if it was right thing to do. Still in contact with ex and wants me back. Now I spend everyday having crippling anxious thoughts about finances and what people will think about me going back. So it's all the same feelings but on the other side of it feeling like I can't make a decision either way. I feel I have 2 people in my head weighing up options obsessively based on any miniscule thing that happens.
I know this all sounds really pathetic but I feel very mentally unwell and absolutely obsessed with trying to figure out what the right decision is for my future. I don't think I have gone more than 5 minutes without thinking about this in over a year and it is so unhealthy. I have a counsellor and she is really trying to help me but nothing seems to be able to get me to stop feeling this way. I have always found it hard to make decisions but the indecision and fight inside my head is horrible. I am at the point where every option feels bad and I think I can't do every single day feeling this anxious which is scary when nothing is helping.