I am certain that I have undiagnosed adhd and autism. It explains many of my traits and behaviours in childhood and now in adulthood. I actually feel like a few things are getting worse as I get older, I am trying to get a diagnosis
I leave everything until the last minute, I procrastinate constantly, I have anxiety
I work full time, I am really struggling at the moment with the feeling of having no time to do what I want. For example, I am getting up earlier in the morning just to be able to have a bit of me time and watch tv before I have to start work. But then it never feels like enough time so I get up earlier. But that still never feels like enough so when it’s time to get ready I feel dread!
Then when I do eventually start work I can't concentrate on work because I am thinking about other things and I just want to do things that feel important to me - eg, we are trying to plan a trip at the moment, I cannot concentrate on work because my brain is consumed with this and I can’t switch it off.
I feel like I am never truly ‘present’ at work and it’s affecting my performance and career progression.
I would give anything to not have to work but unfortunately that’s not an option, my last job was 4 days a week which was bliss and really helped me have more control over my time with that extra day off - but I wanted more money so got a new full time job.
I’m in my 30s so have many years of work left so I need to get a grip on it.
Anyway not sure what I want from writing this but just needed to write it out somewhere I guess. Can anyone relate?