Anxiety has crept up on me over last 18 months. It’s now ruining affecting my everyday life.

[charliemcb19]

Over the course of the last 18 months I have developed anxiety. I have never really been an anxious person but now I feel like I’m going crazy. I’m anxious all the time. To the point I’m catastrophising everything. I’m supposed to take my daughter away next month for a dance comp to Ireland. I won’t fly and now I’m terrified at the thought of getting the ferry. At work I’m convinced I’ve made a huge mistake and get others to double check my work. Panic sets in and I crumble. I’ve been crying for days. I feel like Im letting everyone down.
i went to my gp on Monday. I’ve been started on propranolol and referred for CBT. Getting bloods done to check my thyroid etc. I just want to feel normal again

Was there a particular event or trigger 18 months ago? Or has it coincided with the onset of the peri-menopause?

This video might help in understanding what anxiety is and how to work with it rather than fight it;

This was me op. I listened to the Paul McKenna anxiety help and it is amazing. I tried everything g down to meditation, trying to understand triggers, exposure etc. but in the end the only things that have massively helped me is citalopram daily and when I’m really bad propanalol.

I also just want to add that right now whilst you are in the thick of it- it is so hard and you feel this is your life now. But it’s not your forever and I promise you you will get better x

Download the DARE app if you havent already. Helps me when I'm struggling. There's also a book. I am/have been in your shoes too. Better Days are coming xx

No particular event. It has been a busy stressful couple of years. I’ve been awake for 2 hours. Instantly went into panic on wakening. All I can think of is how can I get out of going on this ferry. My stomach is churning.
im having bloods done to check for perimenopause but not sure it is.

I have propranolol but no AD at present. Think my gp wanted to try other things first

Sorry you're suffering OP. I tried Propranolol and found it good (just had it at particularly bad times). Then developed high blood pressure and can't take it anymore as needed other medication.

There's a good app called 'STOPP' which can help stopping worrying.