Please help. I can't tell the truth Tw suicide/self harm

[BrianBlessedsTonsil]

Hi,
I have EUPD and was very unwell a few years ago. I was sectioned and lost custody of my children.
I am becoming unwell again. I am hearing voices,intrusive thoughts and experiencing paranoia. I am also self harming and tying ligatures and I am having suicidal urges.
My behaviour has changed and the mental health team is concerned but I am too scared to tell the Mental Health team my full symptoms as I am fearful of hospital and social services getting involved again.
Close friends are aware and encouraging me to keep quiet about symptoms due to the last experience. I am coping through self harm but I am unable to implement DBT skills as the urge is too strong. I am struggling to behave 'normal', using headphones and music to distract and just waiting for the antipsychotics they gave me to work.
If they found out I will be sectioned again and my contact with my children will stop.
I guess I just wanted to talk to someone as I feel so lonely struggling alone with this.

I didn’t want to read and run but not sure what to say as I haven’t the experience to help.

However, I can’t see keeping this secret will help. Obviously you don’t want to lose contact with your kids but if things are that bad you won’t be able to hide this long term and if you did end your life then they never get to see you again.

Asking for help rather than having it forced upon you demonstrates (to me) so much more in terms of your mental resilience and ability to deal with life. Be proud of being able to deal with this proactively.

And please speak to someone trained if you are having suicidal thoughts. Samaritans are there to help you.

Hi OP, sorry to hear you are having a bad time. I disagree with your friends, you need to let the MH team know what is happening and then you can move forward with support for you and your children. I understand that that sounds really scary but I would urge you to open up. Take care.