I’ve always experienced certain aspects of wanting to keep things in control (I thought that was just my personality) however my anxiety has got worse over the years and I went to my dr again about it and he suspects I have OCD and has referred me. However I’m not 100% sure…I have this part of my brain that says everything has to be perfect all the time and if it’s not I’m a failure, sometimes I’m so tired and want to sit down but that part of me says I need and have to tidy/clean and sort things. If I don’t I feel out of control and it feels like my life is spiralling. I recently had a week of work because the pressure of everything was too much. I constantly feel I have so much pressure. I don’t handle things being out of my control well at all to the point I could have a breakdown. I also have some kind of phobia of fridges/freezers because I cannot go in them (makes me feel crazy) but the thought of it causes me so much distress. If I have to go in the fridge if no one is around to go in for me I have to cover my hands and then wash them after, I cannot go in the freezer at all I would rather do starve if I’m honest. I also cannot face sitting near corners because I feel like dirt manifests there, I feel so crazy and embarrassed by this