CPTSD and dissociation?

[Bohobetty0]

I have Complex-ptsd from my childhood where I was abused. Currently feeling not quite with it and a bit like I am at the age I was when I was abused in terms of I feel vulnerable and had the urge to suck my thumb which is something I used to do for comfort as a child. Not sure what’s triggered this but it’s honestly so strange and even though I am grown up with my own life away from all of that, I feel like that same vulnerable child that I once was that’s been dumped in my current house. Just feel a bit disconnected and numb

Any similar experiences or anyone who knows what this is and why I’m going through it?

Yeah I've been there a few times OP, and I can happily say I got through it and returned to feeling more normal/'with it's again. I can't say anything helped other than time (even though it was triggered many years after childhood).

Make sure you look after yourself and be the caregiver you never had to yourself. If that means sucking your thumb or buying a tiny tears doll then so what, just do it.

It might be that allowing yourself to be a child again in some ways can help.

thank you so much, I needed that